Good Morning All!
Well its Monday morning and it's raining outside!  The weather is mirroring my own mood.  I wonder do people really know about the fight going on inside when they see me?  Probably not, I guess that's a stupid question...  I try to stay strong for the girls yet it kills me to find out that they are so stressed about our situation.  I try to tell them that it is my job to do the worrying not theirs.  Of coarse that does not help at all.  I wish kids came with a manual then in times like this I would know how to handle it.  In stead I get cranky and yell at the drop of a hat.  Then I see the hurt in their eyes and it kills me a little more.  I'm tired of people telling me that I should just leave Robert that he is no good for me.  What they don't understand is that through all the bad times in the last 7 years he has never left my side.  How many other people that are on their high horse can honestly say that they have someone who has done that?

On a more positive note...  Since last week I have been coming up here to Love's Truck Stop to use their internet and to wait for Robert to get off work.  Any I had been talking to a gentleman about what's going on and this morning when I came in to get myself some breakfast he came up to me and paid for my breakfast with a $50 bill.  When I tried to give him his change he told me to keep it that I needed it more than him.  It really touched my heart.  I guess this means that the world in not full of heartless people like I was beginning to feel.  What's funny is he probably has no idea just how much he has changed my thoughts of the whole human race.  I know that there will always be the haters in the world it's just nice to know that there are still good people in the world.

Some people would say that I am doing nothing more than throwing myself a pity party.  I have just one thing to say to people who think they are better than me "I DON"T NEED YOU!!!!!"  Those people can just keep their thoughts to themselves.  They have not walked a mile in my shoes and if they want to tell me how to live my life I will take off my shoes and they can walk in them for a while and give me a break!