Life is still going on...

I know I have been gone from here for a little while.  We are living now in Gilcrest, Colorado with a good friend of mine Joe Mallard.  He is helping us get our life together. The girls started school yesterday and it's till hard for me to believe that the girls are both in high school.  It is also hard to believe that Ashleigh only has 3 more years of school then she will be off to collage.  Every time I think of these things it make me feel old, it also, make me wonder have I done a good job at raising them.  Will they be successful young adults and adults.  I hope they don't make some of the same intake that I have made in my life.

As for the other issue in our life right now.  I don't know if David is still going to try and take the girls from me. I'm not as worried other than I can't get an attorney down in waco to return any of my phone calls.  It's very frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I feel like I am being punished just because I moved out of the state. I wonder if anyone else has this same problem after moving from the state where their divorce was filed?  I feel that the only reason David is doing this is because he wants to hurt me and the only way he can do that is by taking my children from me and then to turn them against me. Before I had my girls, becoming a Mother was the only thing I wanted in the world.  My girls are my life, they are my reason I get up every morning, and they are the breath in my lungs.  

I'm still waiting to hear about my disability case. In the meantime I am working hard to start up my own jewelry business.  I have been working on making my own jewelry designs to sell around where I live and online.  Keep checking in because in my blog I will be keeping everyone posted about how that is going.

Hey let me know if anyone is even reading my blogs.  Enjoy every day as if it's your last. 

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

Okay I know I have not posted on here in a few months.  My life has had some changes over the last few months.  About a month ago my friend Joe Mallard offered for us to move up to Gilcrest with him in his basement.  Shortly after that Ashleigh went down to spend some time with her father in Texas.  I then got a call from her father that if I did not give him Ashleigh then he was going to take me to court and take all three kids from me.
I asked Ashleigh if that was what she wanted and at first she told me that she wanted to live with me, then David told her that if she didn't move down there he was going to take me to court and take all three of them.

I will finish later...

That point in time...

You know there is a point in time in everyone's life when you realize that no matter what you are going through, someone has it a lot worse.

Yesterday evening I was sitting in the truck waiting for my husband to get off work and there were these two young men that were trying to hitchhike going east.  I figured they didn't have any money and I had what was left of Robert's and my lunch from Chester's Chicken.  I hollered at them and asked if they were hungry and they both said YES!  so i gave them our lunch.  I also, told them that right now DOT is doing their 72 hour inspection for the Truck Drivers and that they would not find a ride with Truck Drivers right now.  I also, told them that Colorado is one of the worse states to hitchhike in because it was illegal here.  It felt good to help someone else out.  All I asked of them is that when they got to wherever they were going that they Pay if Forward.  Watching and talking to them made me thankful for everything I have and not worry about what I have lost.

On to other news....

The other night a old friend Joe Mallard called me and offered his basement for us to live.  he only asked that we help out with utilities.  That is better than the Motel we are living in where we would be spending over $2000 a month.  So on Saturday we are moving up to Gilcrest, CO.  Robert will continue to work at Love's in Bennett until they can transfer him up to Hudson.  We are still keeping the Cattle ranch dream alive and I am looking for somewhere we can keep our horses up near Greeley.

So next time you think your life is horrible and that you don't think you can handle it just remember that there is someone out there who has it a lot worse than you and that whatever you are going through gives you the opportunity to rise above whatever it is and take that chance.  I hope someone is out there reading me.  I look forward to comments...  

My Messy Life: That point in time...

My Messy Life: That point in time...: You know there is a point in time in everyone's life when you realize that no matter what you are going through, someone has it a lot wo...

Living Homeless. Dealing scam artists.

Well the move is over and we are living in a motel room. I put an ad on Craig's List for a family needing to find a place to live. All I have been getting back are scams. Why would someone prey on a family or an individual that are down on their luck. That I just shows me how cruel people can be. I am losing my faith in the human race. I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown.  We are having to hide some of our animals so we don't lose the motel room we are staying in. Right now we are in a one bed motel room our kids are staying at a friends house. I don't know what to do. I know that if I was in a better place I would help a family that was in the position we are in. I set up a Gofundme.com account to try and raise money and even that is falling on deaf ears and blind eyes. 

Some Good News that is also, Sad at the same time.

Okay it's that time of year again where parents are reminded just how fast their kids are growing up.  This whole year she has not been doing well in some of her classes and there was talk of holding her back next year.  We are parents that are real active in our kids school and their grades.  In saying that, if our girls are failing a class they are grounded until that grade comes up and if they are held back the next year they are grounded for the entire next school year...  I know there are people out there that would say that is too harsh.  When we got the first report card this year and we saw that Gabbi was failing one of her classes she was grounded.  Then by the first report card of this second semester she was failing three classes.  We explained to her that she was running out of time and that if she did not fix this, we would ground her for the entire next year.  She started working hard and in short time had brought up to of her classes grades...  There was one class that she just could not bring up no matter how are she worked at it.  I had her tested to see if she needed extra help in that class.

After the testing it was discovered that she did have a problem with Reading Retention.  However, the Special Education department decided that her problem was not bad enough to be in Special Education.  We continued to work hard in helping her to bring up her grade.  She was able to bring it up a little and we were worried that she was going to be held back.  I called the school this morning to find out about some dines she had, and they let me know that she will be going on to the next grade.  

I know that there are a lot of school districts that don't mark moving from the eighth grade to the ninth grade with a ceremony.  The Bennett School District in Bennett, Colorado does.  There was talk that she would not be able to be in the ceremony because of a fine for a book.  Anyways, to make a very long story short I called the school today to straighten everything out and to find out if Gabbi was going to be held back and I got confirmation that she is moving on to high school next year.

After I got off the phone with this news I started thinking "My Baby Girl is moving on to high school and growing up too quickly!"  Gabbi is my youngest and now all three of my girls are in high school.  It feels like just yesterday they were still in diapers.  I'm very proud of her, I'm very proud of all the kids.  Next year both girls will be home schooled, which I hope will help Gabbi out.

It seems everything is slowly coming together.  I can feel the stress amping up a little as we deal with the final week before we have to move.  Yesterday I rented the storage unit and put reservations on our motel room for three nights.  I am meeting with Craig Curl to work on getting the business plan done for the ranch.  I just have to keep a positive attitude and things will work out.

One thing that is having to go away is Shazi our Min Pin puppy.  She is too hyper to be in a motel and for her own sake we are selling her.  Its sad yet I know that she will be loved and happy.  Well that is all my news for today...

My Messy Life: I woke up today! Its a GOOD DAY!!!!

My Messy Life: I woke up today! Its a GOOD DAY!!!!: Good Morning All! It may be gray and cold outside however, I have a new prospective on life.  I talked to the FSA today and it really looks...